And, you know, I knew nothing would really happen. Except that I knew that if I took the day off, but I felt guilty about it, that it would do me no good. It would be non restorative to my energy. So I knew that about myself and I could feel the guilt coming up. And I said, “All right, we need to rectify this,” because I feel like I want to just take today off. All I wanted to do was stay in my pajamas. Go into my very, very, very wonderful comfy bed and just watch some funny movies, have some jasmine tea, and just cuddle up and just be in this laughter world. And that’s all I want to do. And I said, but I know that if I do this, but I feel guilty about it. It’s not going to be enjoyable and it’s not going to be restorative and there’s going to be all these things. So what I do is I stop and sometimes I will journal. I journal all the time.
But in this particular case, I stopped and I just said to myself, alright, “What kind of wisdom are you trying to share with me?” And everything they came up was just this kind of dryness. I don’t know how to explain it, but it was just like, there was nothing else, I had nothing else to give. And I realized after talking to myself, that was okay, that was okay.
And so I made a decision that I was going to take the whole day off. And that I didn’t have to be sick to do it. And that I wasn’t going to tell anyone. I was just going to turn my phone off. Of course, I told my husband and I was going to just be and just do it and just do whatever I wanted and I was going to enjoy it. And it was gonna be like a little kid actually. I felt like a little kid staying home from school. And I stayed in my pajamas and I watched Netflix and I watched funny things. And I laughed. And it was honestly one of the best days I’ve had in a long time. I felt like I did not want the day to end I was having so much joy. And then, you know, the night time came, and I went to sleep, and then the next day I woke up, and I felt like a different person. Honestly, my creativity came back, I felt motivated to do things. I went in and started doing projects that I needed to finish, my skin looked better. I went outside and I breathed… Everything felt different.
And what I was reminded of was that a lot of times when we get into this place, where we think we need to take time off, we’re so depleted by that time that we think It’s going to take days and days and we’re never going to come out of it. So we don’t want to stop and take the time. Because we almost feel like we could be going into this abyss where we just like lose ourselves and and don’t come back.
And people feel this way too when they’re dealing with emotional issues. Sometimes they don’t want to face the emotional issues because it feels so overwhelming and so big, that it feels like they won’t be able to recover from it. And of course, that’s not true. We need to move through that energy. But restorative… Taking the time to restore your energy, is honestly one of the most valuable things you can do. I didn’t feel like doing Qigong that day. I didn’t feel like meditating. I felt like being in my pajamas, having my tea, having my popcorn, watching movies on netflix and laughing and being like a little kid and turning off my phone and saying world I am just not available. That was so restorative.
So I say this to you because when I explained this also to my student who had been dealing with a chronic pain and then she jumped right back into work and was kind of using her energy in ways where her body needed her energy to heal. She was also able to take some days of time off. And each of us inspired each other to remember to take care of ourselves. And I just hope that this inspires you as well, that there are so many ways to take care of yourself and it doesn’t have to be all day. It doesn’t I mean, of course not. It can be, a walk on the beach or a walk in the park or walk in your neighborhood. It can be you sitting out on a deck or patio, a by a window and just breathing in the air reading a book, it can be five minutes, it can be a couple of hours, it can be a whole day, it can be two days.